January 21, 2013 § Leave a comment
One of my most favorite messages came in last Friday from Richard, the gentleman I shared life with for quite awhile and who is still one of my good friends.
See, what ha happen was, I got fired last week.
About 24 hours afterwards, he chatted:
yeah, I figured I wouldn’t be the 1000th person to immediately go “OHEMGEE WHATHAPPENED!”
give you some peace 🙂
(Now, you know why we’re still great friends. He’s incredibly considerate.)
There certainly aren’t a thousand of you. That’s ridiculous. I’m resisting going into a Dane Cook routine that is way way funnier with facial expressions and tone of voice. (You’re welcome.)
But, yes, I got fired. At the end of the work day, on the day I posted my last blog stating I am willing to take a studio position just about anywhere (the irony is not lost on me), my Human Resources representative quietly asked me to come chat with her in our Customer Service manager’s office. My brain immediately went to “Either someone has accused me of sexually harassing them or I am getting fired.” I couldn’t think of anything I had done that danced the line of sexual harassment and so, I assumed, I was being let go. Trying not to jump to conclusions, I went in, sat down, and they shut the door.
“Today is your last day”, she said.
And then, almost compulsively, I took my earpiece out of my ear, sat it on the couch next to me, and muttered “Oh, thank God.”
I wasn’t trying to react that way. In total honesty, I’ve never been fired. But, I did react that way. It was a bad fit and we both knew it. Working in a cubicle out in Research Triangle Park and leaving the house at 8am to return at 7pm every day is just not this girl’s bag. The environment was one that I just could not figure out how to function within. Unlike nearly every other 9-5 job I have had, I was trying to graduate college and help a dear friend in need and run a small business while doing said job. Full tilt is certainly how I roll, but when you combine this with the location and major speed bumps (like the car debacle) and my general level of exhaustion, it proved a toxic mix.
My desk was packed up and I was walked to the front door by a great staff member. My feedback has been welcomed by our customer service manager and I hugged my supervisor and asked her to go for beer soon. There are some really wonderful souls inside those four walls.
And then, I got into my new wheels, let out a big deep breath of relief and went for a drive. Called my folks and my business partner and my best friend. Giggled a few times, thought about how I was sleeping in on Friday, and I have gone running almost every day since.
Emily messaged me the next day and said “I think this might be Jesus’ way of wiping the sweat off your brow” and I couldn’t help but smile at the imagery. It certainly was a long six months and, as I currently sit in a pie shop in Washington, D.C. with some amazing women, I’m so SO thankful for the breather.
I had already scheduled meetings for all of this coming week with lots of folks on how to make the small business the only business. Long sessions hammering out terms and stationary and processes and formatting. It’s scary and incredible and beautiful and terrifying, all at once. However, because someone believes in me, there is a new toy on the way that will make all of it so much easier.
It’s exciting! Though it will require sincere discipline and planning on my part, I am not worried. Nearly daily, the words of Romans display themselves as if on my own personal marquee:
And we know that for those who love God, all things work together for good.
While I work to see what the new path looks like, I’m thrilled to have time to see each of you. There’s more sleep, too, and time for working out. If you would like to join for a run, or yoga, or take a day trip to the ocean, or do silly photos, just get in touch. I am also open to games of chess in great bars, giggling on the couch, and on March 28th, a group of us will be attending the NC Symphony concert starring Boyz II Men.
You read that right.
Thank you for joining on the journey.
So much Love,